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Even When 

I grew up in a conservative Christian home. At the turn of my second decade, I realized I would never be able to change my sexual orientation to what It was "supposed" to be. Ready to lose everything, I wrote this song for my mother. She always loved hearing my songs, so I figured that coming out singing would be the best way to jump one of my highest hurdles. When she heard the outing line, she looked me in the eye and asked, "You are?" I nodded in reply. She responded with, "I already knew. I already knew and I love you." It took some adjustment - as every transition does - but my mom is one of my strongest allies. 

Here are the lyrics:

I've been thinking about this day / the day that I can be free / and I want you to know in every way / I'm relieved, reprieved of anxiety / I love who I am and I hope that you see I'm still me / even when I tell you I'm gay

Please believe me, yes I mean this sincerely, but I thought a song would help you / see that this is something that's happy / oh I am happy / and you need to know that this is how I've always been / and now that the closet door is open / I'm coming out / with hopes you'll still love me as I am

Cause I've been thinking about this day / the day that I can be free / and I want you to know in every way / I'm relieved, reprieved of anxiety / I love who I am and I hope that you see I'm still me / even when I tell you I'm gay

And if you need time to think this through / I promise I'll give that to you / all I can say is that no matter what you do / I'll always love you

Cause I've been thinking about this day / the day that I can be free / and I want you to know in every way / I'm relieved, reprieved of anxiety / I love who I am and I hope that you see I'm still me / even when I tell you I'm gay


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